Life. It's for living.

Blessings all!

It's Yuletide and I have some gratitude to spread around! In no order as that is the mind I have right now. And there will be more later!

I want to thank my not-in-but-around-DC friends for remembering me and including me in their celebrations.

To Dr. Buchholz for his caring manner, help, and listening to me.

Thank you to Adam, for helping and caring for me. For being my friend, for being there

Thanks to Katrina. For everything.

Dr. Khin, for working with me on my psych stuff, trusting my judgment, and the nifty postcard from Thailand. Thank you.

Logospilgrim, you are a glorious being. I am honored we are friends.

Thank you, Valen. For being there, for being so vocal, for pinning me to furniture so I will rest, for nearly giving me a heart attack when you leaped off the balcony for that fly, for stalking the outside hallway like a panther/puma/jaguar, and for your unconditional love.

To my RMS and Connect DC cohorts [in crime and frivolity]: Thank you for your love, support, laughter, and spirituality. I am uplifted and better for being with you.

SeaIvy- your constant support, inclusion in your workings, and love keep my heart warm. Thank you.

The Chronic Pain Clinic: Thank you to Rae and Dr. O'Donovan for all the work you have done and continue to do for me and us. And to the members of the Clinic, thank you for your strength, suggestions, presence, and, especially, your understanding of what we all deal with in our lives.

To Melissa: I miss you something fierce!!! But I know you are strong and your children have the bestest mommy ever!!!!! And Andy better remember his wife should be on a pedestal!!! (But make it short one, so he can lavish love and support on you!) Thanks

Rhonda, that was one quick move! Sorry I couldn't make it out there. But I hope to be down there eventually. I miss you a lot! Thank you, and, remember, "Oh My God!!! The Orange is On Fire!!!"

More as I remember...

Blessings of the season! Stay warm. Eat well. Remember, I love you all!

In the season of Lammas

Bless us!

May there be an abundance of good and wellness during this first harvest! I hope to pop out of my cocoon.

For those not on Facebook: Valen, my cat, took a header off of the balcony wall! I'm the 2nd floor, so he fell/leaped/discovered gravity worked. He landed in the dirt, in front off the patio wall. He realized that those car things were too close and moving. Valen began to yowl! LOUDLY!!! [It echoed off the buildings and down the street.] As by friend Adam ran downstairs to get him, I spoke soothingly to the cat who was trying to get me to stroke out. Valen couldn't find any useful cover, so he leaped up on the patio wall and onto the patio. He went to the glass door of that apartment and continued yowling. The neighbor upstairs tried to soothe him too. dam came out of the building, called to him, and Valen saw refuge and took it!

When Valen arrived back in the apartment, he was nervous and upset. We kept speaking soothingly to him. After he calmed a bit, we put him on the floor and gave him some treats. Adam and I walked back out on the balcony to talk about what had happened.

Valen leaped up onto the balcony wall between us!!!

So, I'm a bit of a wreck from all this. But getting better. Valen seems to be fine, but I'm monitoring him for a few more days.

Things are going ok. Working with the health issues. Moving forward.

Having a yard sale on the 14th. Need to stop drowning in stuff. And move forward at a more brisk pace.

Hope all is well with you. And you are enjoying the grains and fruits!

Blessings upon all of us!


Bless us.

I have been overusing my shields. I expect we all have.

For me, I have used my health issues, the first among many, to block my power(s), abilities, & energies. Worry over my presently precarious place in the world. My family. Valen. I could on & on. Fun things I like to do. They are all shields, of a sort. I concentrate on me, rather than on me in context.

The Universe calls. The Primal Forces call. The Spirit calls. The Earth calls.

And, I'm whining over circumstances which will change over a relatively short time.

Enough 'poor me' most of the time. Need to be me, in context, rather than just me.

Bless us.

Let's see what spills out...

Bless us all.

I was having a conversation last evening (with a real person, not myself). During it, I said part of my being a seer, medicant, spiritual intuitive, and prophet *shudder* was to acquaint people with the fact the Universe Myriadis is Magick(tm) energy.

We are magick energy, as is the stuff we use, breathe, think with, feel, believe, do... All of everything!!! It just is, flows, ebbs, moves, stays, etc.

We use it, even if we don't believe in it. We are it! Making/cooking food is magick. Vacuuming the living room is magick. Petting the cat is, eating, shopping, anything we do is magick! All of these things, usually, are done without thought, intention, or direction. It just moves the magick.

Now, witches can work magick. Pagans, Goddess Women, Wiccans, etc. work it also, usually in conjunction with their Divine Spark/Higher Self/God/dess/es/Whatever. They use thought, intention, and direction.

Unfortunately, a great many of those in the above paragraph don't realize/accept/aren't capable of being conscious of the fact of magickal energy is us/present/everything/the Universe Myriadis. They keep their magickal workings separate. In that metaphorical pretty jar on the shelf to keep it 'unsullied'/safe/'special'. Taken down and used on holy days, powerful lunations, astrologically perfect times, etc.


This energy, this magick, this power is in dirt, dog poop, skyscrapers, tenements, thought, tv shows, food, body emissions, your Tshirt, their words, feelings, EVERYTHING!!! And yes, I believe different things can influence the working: astrological things, time of day, etc. However, there is one thing that trumps all else- NEED & NOW!

As I am a Pagan, I refer to it as Everyday Spiritual Magick. Some of you may refer to it as Everyday Magick. Whatever you do, do it with intention, thought, and direction. Digging into your soul, pooping, eating, reading a book, sitting, watching tv, anything one does is Everyday Spiritual Magick.

Back in the day, spirituality (or religion) suffused society. When you woke up, you said a prayer. Food came with prayers, grabbing your hoe and using it went with a chant, and so on. Everyday, every activity, came with intention, thought, and direction. There were holy days, specific times for specific workings, etc., but magick happened all the time!

Our society today has stripped the magick, the spirituality, from living. Almost all of us go on autopilot for some or most of the day. We are shallowly connected to our own living, our own being in this society, much less than the Universe Myriadis.

As one of the people who understands/accepts/believes in the magick/power/energy, even I 'don't get it' much of the time. I don't focus, direct, intend, or think about what I'm doing all of the time. I need to. We all do.

Lately, I've been complimenting and thanking people. Wishing them better or more fabulous days. I am fighting the good fight against negativity in the world, putting more positivity out there. Yes, it's a big working, and it depends on others to 'pay it forward'. But, just getting a smile is worth it. I pushed the negativity back a little/moment/in the now.

I remember to imbue my dishes, food prep, cat food, and medications with appropriate intentions, direction, and clear, conscious thought. I remember I've stopped blessing my bed, the clean laundry, and vehicles I ride in. I am human.

But I am a Pagan. I strive for a more conscious, Sacred, Spiritual, magickal life. It is a struggle. But anything worth so much does come with a struggle. It means change.

And we humans only welcome good change. We'll fight change we think threatens us. How many of us (actually) are/choose to be connected to the oil spill in the Gulf? Haiti? Drug cartel wars in Mexico? People facing severe/chronic/life-ending issues? Gaza? All of these at once? Most of us keep our distance (for some, because their earth vessel (body) won't let them), but the rest of us aren't the activists rushing in.

Each of us can't do everything. Really, you cannot. We may want to, but that simply scatters energy. Look for what you can do. I can be a more conscious, spiritual, magickal, aware being. I continue to become a seer, a medicant, a spiritual intuitive, channel/voice for the Divine, and a prophet *shudder*. I will continue my studies, my magick, my abilities, my powers, and so on. I will speak my truth. I will be a voice for the Divine. I will continue to evolve.

I will practice more and more Everyday Spiritual Magick!

Bless us all! Beyond measure!

*I've reread this entry, and I'm leaving in what I didn't type.

Before I get on FB

Blessings all!

For awhile now, I've been ignoring something that most people have seen. I've been in a slight level depression. I'm taking some pills, but, I've been a little lower for a while. I'm thankful I've had the drugs has it took the deeper bad edges off. Which allowed me to ignore it.

Usually, good changes for me happen in spectacular times. Unexpected, unwanted, and unconvenient. I stopped updating my website and FaceBook page a long while ago. Then, I rarely wrote in LJ. So, changes were coming. I chose to ignore the signals, too.

Ignorance can be bliss... Till it blows sky high... On all levels and planes...

I am coming back to myself. It's a changed self. I like it a bit better. Not fully unfolded yet. And more changes to come. Hopefully, conscious, wanted, needed, spiritually unfolding changes. And a little less spectacular than shut down-ignition-explosion-result-understanding.

GOD/DESS/ES! May that be so!!!

The above explains why I'm no longer at Blue Lotus Treasures, the stress, the physical body things, the move to a new apartment... and so much more I can't bring to mind at midnight.

I have been in a another steep learning curve, or is it the same one? Whatever it is, I'm realizing it again.

The Hekatae would like to insert in here NOW: It's a gradient, people!!! Get over yourselves!!!

I needed my new poustinia. Did I want it at this time? No. Do I think I can keep up with it? No. Will I? As best I can. I need it because we'll need it. It will be a beacon of hope, a safe place, as the wheels turn.

I needed to change. The patterns were no longer fulfilling what was needed.

I must get back to being the spiritual intuitive, the Tarot consultant, the coven member, the hidden elder for others seeking, the High Priest. I must fuse the magickal persona back within me. I must me. More me.

Gratitude. Acceptance. Understanding. Discerning.

Teaching. Leading. Holding the Lamp as the Hermit does.

I needed the open mics that adam has brought me to. He thought it was to support him. It is much more! I didn't realize how much I missed live art. The sharing! One of the hosts called it: 'Throwing your soul on the floor, in front of everyone, and showing the insides.' In the number of times I have been a witness to these expressions, I feel the pull to share my own stories, my family adventures, my life as a transplanted suburban Chicago, white boy. Soon, very soon.

I pray I will be able to share my spirituality to others who need to see there is no perfection, no one right way, no one director. It is what is. It's perfect in the moment. Plan for a better tomorrow. See what happens. See yourself. Understand who you are, rather than what they told/taught/forced you to be. Be you. And know you are perfect whoever/whatever/whenever/wherever/however you are. Right this moment! This is your strength! Hang on to it. We all need it! Now... and in the future... soon...

I need the scrying bowl The Hekatae have shown me in my dreams. Perhaps by physical manifestation, I can manifest the spiritual messages I have been unable to put into inadequate wordages.

I feel I have returned to myself. I hope I remember to be here. To ruminate, to share, to support, to be present. As I put me back to becoming, more of me will be here now/present.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for being my friend/family/part of me. I give thanks!

Bless you!

It's 1am...

Bless us.

And I'm posting. *shrugs shoulders*

Had a fabulous evening at a poetry jam with A. He read some of his own poetry. They liked him. He was faboo!

This is the 2nd one he has taken me with to. I've found out how much I miss live performance/art. When I was in high school and college I attended more live performances than in the years since (not including peoples' psychodramas). *OY!!! other peoples' psychodramas*

Valen and I continue to adjust to the new poustinia. I am beginning to hate cardboard. There will be a large yard sale soon! We will not drown in schtuff!!! Valen likes the balcony too... To the point he's thinking about visiting the neighbor's balcony by slinking around the wall that separates us. Yeah, no... It gives me heart palpitations when he is dancing on the wall with the railing. *sigh*

My PCP doctor called today. He has been researching places that will take my insurance for some specialist testing. Called to tell me he found a place in DC, and he had faxed a referral to them already! And they may have some ideas and help about the fibro and chronic fatigue! I last saw my PCP on March 23rd. Have I mentioned yet how much gratitude I have for this doctor!!! I give thanks...I Give Thanks...I GIVE THANKS...

I am glad about this heat, too. It has made my body feel its best in a few months.

That's my catch-up. A rumination is working its way out towards pixels.

Care, Love, Blessings!


Info people should know

Bless us!

As many of you know, I'm moving at the end of the month. And I could use some help. I get the keys to the new place on Feb 23 (Tuesday). Here is what I know I need:

Prior to the 23rd-
-Haulage items
for books, mementos, bathroom, and kitchen.

Starting the 23rd through the 27th-
-People to pack what hasn't been packed, and schlep
-2 wheeled and 4 wheeled hand trucks and dolleys
I will be unloading boxes, crates, etc. during the day.

26th (Friday) and 27th (Saturday) VERY IMPORTANT!!!!-
-People to pack what hasn't been packed, and schlep
-2 wheeled and 4 wheeled hand trucks and dolleys
-Making sure everything is off the walls, the appliances are clean, the 3 accent walls are primed, and one last vacuum
NOTO BENE: The altar is heavy, and the china cabinet and tv are awkward.

This plan leaves the 28th for whatever I can't get done. And calming the freaked out Valen.

I am working out what is available for sale. I will post soon, then craigslist.

For those that know my address, only the apartment number is changing. The apartment #, as of March 1st, is 209.

The new name will be for a poustinia. Think I can get Beauregard on that?

Blessings all!